ohemgee i’ve got skillz too. oh yeah and happy new year (noooo). December 31, 2008

ohh nooeessss. one more day of actually having a life. aahhh crapp.
and i’m starting to feel too lazy to post already. pfft.

i’d say that yesterday was a day really well spent with (some of) the ruggers. i thought that yesterday was gonna be damn boring again, coz well, we had to frickin go back to school to listen to a psl breifing. and that’s like, two days before the holidays end? but whatever lah, it was quite nice. wargames was retarded, but the sec ones are certainly gonna have a hell lot of fun. GOOD JOB TO ALL PSLS! (((:

then after that we went to eat at pizza hut. coz we’ve been eating fast food (well, the healthier choices at the fast food restaurants at least. whaaat? that’s all we could eat/: ) for like the past few days, and we thought that it was gonna hurt our fitness like hell. c’mon man, i’m sure as hell that i’m not gonna do any more pt. and at that point i realized that hanbin was some rich dude. well, okay, i actually realized that quite a long time ago. but at that point i really realized realized. he’s a nice guy.

for a while we stoned. dunno where to go. sigh. like all ri guys, we have to actually do something when we go out. why can’t we just like hang around or something? we wanted to go lan, but then we realized that it was kinda gay and retarded if we kept doing the same thing over and over again. soo we went bowling at marina square. can somebody say lol?

haha and there we screwed around a lot. lol aravin insisted that malay people sucked at sports like bowling and pool (yeah, like wtf right?). and i showed him wrong. the first time that i bowled i scored a strike. a strike. who sucks at bowling now huh? HUH?

lol and then i showed the guys why they called me “the left handed genius” in china. they don’t actually do that of course, and i was just screwing around, but hell. i definitely was on some tyco streak or something. the first time i bowled with my left hand, i knocked down 7 pins. okay fine, not bad. then the second time, i knocked down the rest and scored a spare. an ffing SPARE. hhahahah we all started cracking up and laughing like crap.

then i did this like behind the back bowl, and scored another spare. it was physically impossible, but i still did it. i think i should like advertise for adidas or something haha(:

well today was nothing much. just went out with the family and bought new stuff for my sister, who finally got into njc(ip). no more scgs for her. dang. i was soo looking forward to significantly expand my social circle.

aand now im gonna do some ab exercises thingymagicks. what a great way to spend the last few minutes of 2008 eh? WHYY NO PARTYYY?? i feel damn sad, damn sad.

ahh well here’s wishing you guys ein frohes neues Jahr!!

(that means happy new year in german if you didn’t know)

ohemgee i am hawtt December 28, 2008

lol. today proved to be a really weird day. i barely did anything, yet, strangely… i had quite a lot of fun. heh. who knew?

well earlier in the afternoon, around 130, there was this like huge ACS(J) alumni gathering. okay, fine, it wasn’t that huge… around 6 people? but the whole point of that gathering was to meet our old friend Alexius (who migrated to australia in around P5) who came back to singapore but a short holiday. and by golly he did change a lot.

and of course we all managed to catch up with each other, but 2 hours definitely ain’t enough. we met at the hyatt… aaaand then ate lunch at far east plaza. haha, yeah, like wtf right? lol:P

and guess whahappened? we spent the whole 2 hours at some random foodstall on the 5th storey eating chicken rice. and talking of course. haha we said a lot of funny stuff, but strangely, i forgot what it was all about. sigh.

yep and then alexius had to leave, so the rest of us decided to watch a movie. but (yeah yeah, there’s always a but) then gulshan and i had to leave for the ripb sec 4 farewell. so we left, and the rest of them called us losers, no-lifers and a bunch of pu**ies. ahaha then guess what? the rest of the ‘cooler’ people didn’t watch a movie in the end. instead they went home. lol what a bunch of losers.

so that brings us to the next event. yeah, so there gulshan and i were, walking towards ri, expecting there to be some kind of big bash or something. but then guess what we found? the guys were frickin playing captain’s ball with frickin fruits and vegetables. like wtf? people were throwing things that could be used to feed at least 2 empty stomachs in some indigenous parts of africa at each other for a game.

yeah so after the spasticism had passed, we all played soccer. lemme say that some people can play soccer, and some people can’t. and lemme say that i’m slowly making my way to the first group of people. i think. well so mr mac joined us, but i think that no one dared to tackle him. haiz. so the game was kinda one sided in the end.

haha yep so then we had the traditional sec 4 farewell finale, complete with cheesy/teary photo montage and sounvenirs. plus cake! who could ever forget cake?

AHAHA then here’s where the fun starts. pei yuan suddenly pulled out this card that could ‘predict’ your success in dating. you have to put your finger on this black thing on the card, and then the black thing will change colour according to your ‘success level’ so to speak. for some reason, it kept on changing to blue for me, and that is a GOOD thing. apparently it means that “[I] am hot – I should GO FOR IT”. like wtf does ‘GO FOR IT’ mean? ohh wait, does it mean what i think it… nvm.

haha then i started to challenge all the prefects in the room. both of us put both our fingers on the card, and saw whose side turned to blue. and guess who was blue every single time? for some reason the rest of them was green (i think it meant that they were steady or something).. but not hawt (enough for me)! hah!

then i was like “i’m the hottest” and suanning moses, then kirk had to make a speech. the whole room was slient, and i had no idea what was happening. guess who shouted “I AM TEH HAWWTTESTT OF THEM ALL” and made a total embarrassment of himself. yours truly.

haha so that’s what happened.

today was so kewwll December 21, 2008

today must have been like one of the kewwllest days of my life. it probably is one of the few days that we spent such a hell lot of money in one go too.

i got new boots, the new super duper über cool leather limited edition puma king to be exact. apparently adidas and nike boots tear easily, so what the hey, i’m just gonna try a new brand that not many people use. makes me feel unique((: the boots feel super nice though. plus, it’s GOLD (and black). cmon, who doesn’t like gold? and black? mann i can’t wait to get these babies on the field.

i got new running shoes too! i got another pair of adizeroes, but i guess it’s about time. i’ve been wearing the same running shoes since sec 1 (yeah, sec 1! can you believe it?), and it’s tearing all over the place and stuff. i’ve been superglueing that crap countless times already, and apparently, there’s only so much superglue can do. the new shoes look like christmas trees though, but what the heck, ’tis the season to be jolly after all. haha.

and ohemgee there’s a lot more cool stuff (and more expensive stuff too) that we bought, but now i’m tired. *yawn* yeapp so maybe i’ll just continue this list of amazing stuff some other time.

w00tness baybeh.

something’s up December 18, 2008

something is really wrong with me today.

i’m feeling pissed the whole time. pissed at what i’m not exactly sure. i’m not pissed at any particular person, event or thing; i’m just… pissed.

tried closing my eyes and make it go away, but i just ended up fanning the flames. the sore throat is not making me feel any better either.

didn’t talk much. i just kept to myself by the end of the afternoon. please make it go away; i can’t have this for tomorrow. hopefully it’ll be gone by then.

i’m feeling weaker. not just in the way i think but.. i’m feeling it in my body too. i’m feeling lethargic and tired the whole time. i can’t even breathe normally. but i gotta run and hit the gym sometime soon. tomorrow it is.

i really don’t feel like doing anything.

i’m starting to like the darkness
i can’t see, hear or feel
but i don’t need to
close my eyes and let the shadows envelope my body
bask in the cold stillness of the night
the emptiness may be blinding, the silence deafening
but that’s just what i want
that’s just what i need
i can hear the pounding of my heart slowing
the breaths i take lengthening
and the noises in my mind disappearing
finally.

some people are afraid of the dark
but i don’t understand why one should fear
tranquility
quiescence
calmness
peace
and solitude.

finally a vacation December 13, 2008

off to malaysia tomorrow. not very far, but, heck, it’s still away from singapore.

it’s all just a load of bullshit. December 10, 2008

these three simple words
have been repeated countless times
and yet
these three simple words
are the only words i can find
to show how i feel, deep inside

i know i’ve never been there for quite a while
but i have my reasons
some people just can’t
believe what’s lying right in front of them
“the truth, and nothing but the truth”

and i’ll never let that bugger take my place
for as long as i still breathe

now i know myself for who i am
i’m weak inside
i’ve always thought i was stronger
now i know

and guess what?
i’m tired of repeating the same crap over and over again.

i am sorry
if i let you down
but there are
some things
that are out of my control.

reality can sure kick you hard in the nards December 7, 2008

well, i know this is kinda late but, I’M BACK! (for better or for worse, i’ll never know)

australia was great.
amazingly great.
like i anticipated, the food there was superb
but
i know for sure that i’ll never touch a plate of fish and chips again (at least for a week or so)
and oh my gosh
the girls there can really take my breath away
i mean, it’s almost impossible
how can it be that everywhere i look
at least 90% of the girls
yes 90%
look like they belong on the cover of cosmopolitan or something
it either means that every single gal there is super hot
or that
the girls here are…
…
not up to standard? (just joking [please don’t kill me(: ] )
haha i dunno

swimming with sea lions is over
frolicking in the pristine beaches is long gone
freezing my ass off in summer has passed
back to reality.

i (and you) can check out the cool photos i took at my facebook account though:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=48665&l=f1e0f&id=577457560

man i missed a hell lot of trainings
that stupid thought keeps nagging in my mind
i need to get back
and like everything we do
i have to smash that weak, insignificant thought out of my mind
into nothingness

but luckily i did my own pt in australia
you’ll never believe how nice it is
to feel the cool breeze blow against your face
the sharp and fresh air filling your lungs
i’ve never enjoyed running so much
before

and now i’m sick
great, just great
i guess i’ll just have to recover soon
and wait
but that’s no problem
i’m already used to waiting

changchun outing yesterday was superb.
although we didn’t really do much
but it’s the company that we’re with
that counts

tomorrow’s hari raya haji
i really hope i get well enough soon
to go visiting and all that
i can’t wait to see all my relatives
‘cos it makes me forget about
all those things clumped up in my mind
that make me worry
that make me weary
at least for a while

reality can sure kick you hard in the nards.